Amanda Delzer is an example of what it means to see it through. Her story is full of perseverance, hope, and grace. As a mental health nurse, I would like to apologize to you on behalf of your prescribing doctor. Once again, the mental healthcare system has failed.
This is an example of how poor our mental healthcare system is. As a psychiatric nurse, I was extremely frustrated many times. The reason being is that too many times, a patient would be willing to do their part in getting better, yet we could not pull through on our end and give these patients what they needed.
Oftentimes, the psychiatrists over-prescribes the patient or wrongly diagnoses them, and the medication is all wrong. Other common issues were that we didn’t have enough nurses and assistants to provide one-on-one care. ~ Respectfully and Sincerely Yours Kami Ann Davis
This is an incredible story of never giving up. Here is Amanda Dezler’s story. ~
‘At the age of 18, I began taking psychiatric medications. In a two week time-period my doctor took me from 20 mg of Prozac to 120 mg of Prozac and in that two weeks she added clonazepam, Xanax, lamictal, Ambien and another antidepressant, I can’t remember the name of. I went from moderately depressed to extremely suicidal in a matter of weeks. I finally got a little bit of a handle on things after finding a therapist who actually listened to me..and worked with me to get the right medications, down along with counseling. She was a counselor at an eating disorder clinic as I also struggled with bulimia, since the age of 14.’
‘Before finishing with my eating disorder treatment, I ended up moving from Fargo, ND to Lagrange, CA ..due to going through a divorce. So for many years after that I managed my depression/anxiety/eating disorder as best I could, (on my own about once a year) by going on antidepressants. I would then go back off of them again, never really finding anything to help other than alcohol and prescription painkillers. I lost myself in those pills, and became an empty shell of a person. I hid my addiction for about ten years, along with getting into tons of legal trouble due to binge drinking and blacking out. I was never once told not to drink on all those medications or what would happen. It probably said it on the bottle, but I was ignorant to it.’
‘This mess of a life went on for years, until I met a girl through mutual friends, who always had this green powder with her. She mixed up drinks with it and one day I had the guts to ask what it was and she said it was kratom, a tea leaf that comes from Southeast Asia, and that people use it for pain and also anxiety.. and other issues. I was intrigued and began researching. After about 3 weeks of research, and finding a reliable vendor who took the time to explain things to me, I decided to give it a shot.’
‘For four years, I have been off any and all pharmaceuticals. I am the best version of myself I have ever been and most importantly I’m the best mother I can be for my kids. Kratom has not only changed me, but has also saved my life.’

This brings to mind whe my doc tried to diagnose my opioid withdrawal with amitriptyline, tizanidine, a muscle relaxer similar to clonidine, and meloxecam, an antiinflamatory for the pain she thought I was imagining. The meds failed to work unless i Had tramadol with them. Now I’m back on kratom and kratom only. People get annoyed when I s start talking about kratom, why don’t you just quit you don’t have real pain bla bla bla. If I try to quit, I end up either homicidal or suicidal. The kratom probably wouldn’t produce that, but I don’t allow myself to run out just in case. It manages my pain and depression much better than those stupid pills did.
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Stick to your goals and your healthy way of cognitive thinking. You ARE thinking correctly …and intelligently, based off of scientific knowledge. Hold your stand my friend. You have over 15 million Americans supporting you, standing by you, who consume right alongside you.
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