People don’t want to be faced with what they once were but if you don’t, how can you heal? Don’t think I don’t understand both sides because I do. I left home and lived on the streets at 16 for almost a year. I know what it’s like to be hungry and not know where my next meal was going to be. I have done crank, coke, acid, pot, whatever (for years in my teens and 20s) ..I’m not ashamed of it. I’m not proud of it either, but I’m healed enough to admit to it and not let it condemn or shame me.
I have been raped. I WAS a victim of sexual abuse. I survived. I have suffered trauma, after trauma for a better portion of my life. I survived. I suffered domestic violence for 8 years in a horrible marriage, while pregnant and disabled all while taking care of my dad at the end of his life and nursing my mother, emotionally and mentally. I still survived and went on to be a psychiatric nurse and also got therapy for my trauma… and I PREVAILED.
I also did this by myself. I healed mostly, on my own, alone. I did have one of the greatest social workers ever who went through a lot of trauma herself and I was able to process my traumas through the education she gave to me, regarding sexual assault and rape.
No one wants to talk about anything. I DO. I hope my boldness will make a change in today’s society, when it comes to addiction, deception, enabling, stigmatizing, and mental health. Because something needs to CHANGE. When I went to counseling, I actually learned that it wasn’t my fault and I learned how the mind works inside of a predator. Knowledge is power and I’m grateful to myself for going on my own and wanting to learn about what actually happened to me. It allowed me to stop blaming myself and stop constantly criticizing myself with a negative self-dialogue. Therefore, I was able to grow immensely afterwards and be the person who I was always meant to be.
My point being that it’s impossible to move forward in life and progress if you constantly deny the truth in which surrounds you. If someone is incapable of doing this, that’s understandable as well because we are all different. HOWEVER, no one has the right to be so selfish to deny others the truth or opportunity to see it.
For example, if you support methadone and suboxone that’s fine but don’t knock a plant that’s 1,000 times less addicting and safer. If you’re uncomfortable with seeing the benefits of Kratom like how it shows on my side-by-side picture as opposed to a woman who is coked and drugged out of her mind, don’t look at it. But, don’t tell me I’m misleading you because you cannot actually READ my explanation of the picture.
I’m a fighter. But, even on the streets I did not have to explain myself so much in order to make someone see the truth about something such as this plant called Kratom. Nor, have I come across so many vial human beings who constantly nit pick or bully each other because they feel Kratom is making THEIR form of recovery look ‘bad’. Stop putting each other down, as a means of making YOURSELF feel better or try to one-up each other.
The article before this, I wrote has been attacked personally all day because of my side-by-side pictures. People get mad because they think I’m putting addicts down as a means of highlighting Kratom.
I’ve never seen or heard so much bs in all my life. We should not have to hide the fact that we as Kratom Consumers don’t look like or ACT like DRUG ADDICTS. Did I STUTTER. People need to stop enabling and protecting others from the truth solely because they’re afraid their feelings will get hurt.
Kratom advocates should not have to hide the fact that Kratom is safer and less addicting than MAT, in order to make this community feel better. We ESPECIALLY shouldn’t have to hide the fact that we don’t look or act like someone who is consuming deadly drugs. Yes, there is stigma in that but we are constantly being stigmatized for being ‘drug addicts’ and we have to defend ourselves and this plant because unlike MAT which is praised, our plant is being demonized by the FDA, DEA, and media.
Also, the results and the behaviors of people who do consume DEADLY DRUGS like cocaine, heroin, and meth ARE BAD/NEGATIVE and deserve to be presented as just that. Being addicted should not be shamed. But, being addicted to deadly substances and as a result harming others should not have to be hidden or sugarcoated to make someone feel better or to protect them. This is why mental health is essential.
How are we going to advocate, educate, and teach people who are stuck in MAT about Kratom if we can’t even show the differences and the actual facts??
Stop putting people down for using a different form of recovery. Stop criticizing someone because you think they need to sugarcoat it. Stop being an enabler. Stop ‘protecting’ people from the truth. I keep hearing that these people are broken so we have to be extra kind. But, the truth isn’t always happy and kind. What are these people being protected from? From the truth? The truth hurts sometimes. But, it is the lie that will hurt much much more in the end when you finally take your head out of the sand and open your eyes, look around, and WAKE UP.